It's taking forever to open up wikipedia!!!!!!!!!!eeeeeeeeee.....so frustrating!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yesterday the intern told me that wikipedia english is available in China now. I tried to check out a certain kind of bug and the web page couldnt be opened in 50 mins. Today I told the intern about that, and he logged on to the website immediately. I thought maybe last night was an exception, so I tried again this evening in my dorm. I googled a pastor's name and he is on wikipedia, then I clicked on that link. Let's see....uhhh....it's been more than 30 mins since I the web page window popped out, but its still white and there's only 5 little green progressing bars at the bottom of the screen.....

I hope its only because of the slow speed of the school network. That reminds me of a post on Xiada BBS, the title is "It's late at night, and I just want to blow up the Sai Er net!" Sai Er is the name of our school net, which is notoriously slow. But it's still cool that we could use wikipedia english in our office. Although the intern told me that it would be available only till the olympics end. That just sounds outragious and rediculous. The policy of "fooling people" has obviously been having the upper hand ever since Qin Shi Emperor's "Burning books and burying scholors"....

天气很热，工作的第一天，老板弄错了两件事，耽误了我两三个小时，我和实习生自嘲了一番七点钟终于回到了厦大。实习生是个有着小时候玩的洋娃娃一样卷头发的男生。我看着他的头发，好几次都有种冲动想要去摸一摸是不是真的（虽然知道肯定是真的），因为它们看上去是那么软，那么完美的卷卷（我做梦都希望自己能烫出那种卷子），然后问问他谁给他做的头发（知道他可能会说是上帝）。晚上和tony一起吃晚饭，告诉他关于实习生的头发时，他摇了摇头，说：请你千万不要那么做！我说我知道，我就是有那种冲动，你干吗反映那么强烈！他说他不能忍受我想去摸另外一个男人的头发，他居然还拿出了一鸣把女生送小马的贺卡扔掉的例子来为自己辩护！人家一鸣可是女生啊！我说你知道你没什么好担心的，我不是随便的女人，况且我跟那个实习生说话的时候提到了好几次我的未婚夫什么的，所以不会发送错误信号的。他后来承认，但还是说这是一个关于骄傲的事情，要维护他作为我的未婚夫的自尊。

所以好吧，为了这个男人的骄傲，我要控制自己的好奇心和行为，来维护他大男人的自尊。但我一点也不觉得自己低声下气，因为我知道，他完全值得我这么做，因为他是那个唯一真正爱我，尊重我，关心我比自己多的男人。虽然我和很多男生相处的很好，和很多人也有很愉快的时光，但是经历了暗恋，明恋，单恋，被恋，这十几年一路走来，让我更知道他的爱是多么的宝贵，他让我真正体会到了爱与被爱，让我真正的去接纳自己和爱自己。那些过去的那些人，好的时光，坏的时光，甜蜜的回忆，伤心地回忆，现在看来也是值得的，谢谢你们，让我明白了什么是错误的爱，尝过了痛苦与难过，并在真正的爱来临时懂得珍惜和维护。。。。。。