One does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes

from the mouth of God.  ------------ Matthew 4:4

 

Yesterday was Yanli's birthday, we were going to celebrate it after

church yesterday afternoon. But we have to wait for another friend

who serves in English corner after the service. Thus I went to Xinjie

church's English corner for the first time.

 

Everyone that goes to the English corner will be given a red strip of paper

with a bible verse on it in both English and Chinese. There is a number on

each piece of them. At the end of English corner, they will draw a number

from a box and whoever has that number on his/her strip will have to go

to the front and recite the verse in English. Yesterday's verse is the one

at the beginning.

 

The topic for discussion was "what makes you happy?"

It feels like its been so long since I was not a believer. That's how i felt when

i was sitting in the room with most of the people who are nonbelievers.

Surely and surprisingly, no one said that money makes him/her happy.

Obviously, everyone knows that money cant bring you everything.

Still, most of them said careers, family, a comfortable house... will make them happy.

A guy in our group said "enough" makes him happy.

I guess its from the old chinese saying:"Zhi zu chang le"(those who are content are happy)

But what is "enough"?

He went further: Have a family, a good wife and a good kid, a comfortable house, a

good job...

I dont know how long his list will be, but I still doubt that those things will bring him

happiness.

sure, its nice to have a loving family, a comfortable house,a good job, maybe a car,

maybe a little saving in the bank...

those things are good, they meet our physical and emotional needs,

sometimes, but not all the time. And there are times that those things

will bring us trouble, worry, depression, restlessness...

even the one loves you the most disappoints you sometimes, that s why every marriage

has to deal with its own conflicts between the two in love.

 

Now, it may sound boring or even hyporcritical to some people, especially to those cynics,

but still i will say the only thing that could make you truely happy and have real joy is God.

Simply because He is not human, not anything created by humen. Instead He created

everything that is good, including human beings (yea, sinful, unworthy human beings).

Therefore, He will not disappoint us. So what makes you happy? You think about it.

 

One does not live by bread alone, but by every word that comes from the mouth of God.

                                                                                      -----Matthew 4:4

 

上个周在bbs上看到有卖电子琴的才280块钱，

和tony商量了几次考虑了几天后就决定去买。

卖琴的是个很结实的很有男人味儿的男生，

干净，爱运动，说话不多但很清楚，嗯，很不错的，嘿嘿。。。

废话少说，这琴是他去年从网上360买的，我之前也在网上查了，现在最便宜的是330。

但是他好像一次也没用，什么都包的好好的，据他说买来的时候，打开看过一回，tony还怀疑他都没打开过。

我们试了试，（其实我什么以不懂，就是乱敲一敲：），然后我给他小刀了一下。

他出了个价，我们谁也不想占谁的便宜，就很爽快地260成交了。

接着我就高兴的搬着琴架，ton搬着琴就回去啦：）

 

买了琴之后的我十分兴奋，什么也不做就开始装好弹起来，害的可怜的tony只好去另外一个房间打开电视在沙发上睡午觉。

那天我整整谈了一下午，进步也很大，从不知道1234567，到可以谈完整的曲子了。

不过，最终要吃晚饭的时候，tony很痛苦的问我可不可以停一下，他说现在对他来说我的琴声就像滴水酷刑一样。

把我笑死了，我问他是不是后悔支持我买琴了，他说不后悔因为我高兴就好。

签于他问题回答得不错，我就暂停了弹琴。

但我把琴放在他的房间，这几天每天吃午饭前后都会弹上一会儿。

现在我自我感觉有进步，有一点点流利的调调了，没有滴水那么严重了，嘿嘿...

还是很高兴，童年梦想的缺陷又被弥补了一项了，

虽然年龄越大烦恼越多，但可以自己做自己喜欢的事情的感觉真的很好：）

想当年。。。。。。

（唉！当一个人开始回忆往事的时候，他/她就老了。）

不管怎么说，想当年，单身的时候，其实有那么多的好，值得想念。

现在，两个人就等于多一层束缚。

原本有父母的束缚，社会的束缚，现在加上他/她对你的束缚。。。

本来很想，就两个人生活在一个孤岛上，不用面对和担心任何人的期望值。

错了，大错特错。

想来，只有一个人才能是一个岛，两个人就有了对彼此的期望。

 

好不容易聚在一起了，所以不想分开，所以放弃去南大交流，泰国支教的机会。

想做什么事，也不能只考虑自己和父母的想法和感受了，还得考虑他的想法。

什么时候可以做真正的自己？

自由？反自由？不自由？基督里得自由？

我倒是希望自己真的可以只在乎神的看法，就省心了，把一切交给他了。

但上帝给我们的道路从来不是简单的。

他安排在我们的生命中那么多爱我们的人，并且要求我们无条件的爱他们。

怎么可以自私的只做自己想要做的？

所以，一个人也不是一个岛。

 

现在想起单身的时候，还偶尔自怨自怜的认为自己孤单，可怜之类的。

错了，单身的好，现在真的很想念。

所以单身的人，尽情享受你的美好时光！

去公安局的路上看到校门口建好的小区楼盘，原来是写“仅2万元一平米”，现在完全竣工，

新的广告打的是“首付仅25万元”！

好吧，如果用来诱人的广告都是25万的首付的话，按首府十分之一算，最便宜的房子也要250万！

天啊，工薪阶层的人还怎么活啊？!

 

昨天听教堂里的传道说教堂扩建，以后教牧人员都不能在教堂住了。

那也就意味着牧师和传道们要搬家。说是教堂给提供一年的租房费用，以后就不管了。

我听见旁边有人问那是不是要买房子。传道说房子那么贵哪能买得起。

是啊，恐怕中上等的工薪阶层买房子都很困难，何况收入不高的教牧人员呢。

但是现在的贫富差距真的是很大啊。

我们教会里那些有钱的年轻人才二三十岁，却都开着名牌的车子，住着几层高的房子。

这个月结婚的那对在海景皇冠酒店办宴席。小白说他们家的洋酒比他都值钱。

 

写到这里，我突然无语了。

 

 

What a bummer!

Our reading and writing teacher keeps turtoring us.

He is indefatigable at this.

Now we have to do an origional research project with a partner.

Its like elementary assignments----do a report on objects such as "where are the trees on xiada campus from?"

I just so cant laugh right now!

 

Today I got my passport with my "wanted" picture on it, pretty scary.

I found that my chinese passport is lot thicker than tony's american passport.

It turned out that mine have more visa pages than his.I told him that its because Chinese passports tend to get more rejections, that's what the extra pages for.

Anyway, I cant go visit america with him this summer, because I decided to not apply for an american visa

due to the little time I have.

But its kind of a relief. Because I dont think I can get the visa anyway.

 

I just finished reading Casanova's memoire--go to paris.

It is a hilarious book! Right now I am reading Animal Farm by George Orwell.

It should be interesting.

 

I feel totally miserable and pathetic!

Walking in high heels for half a day almost killed me!

Yes, of course high heels will make your feet sore because they are not flats.

BUT, I am a GIRL!

If Christie can RUN in her 6 sentimeters pointy toed high heels, I have to at least be able to WALK in my 2 sentimeters rounded toed high heels!

May be I shouldnt have opted for the stliletto, but I really really dont like chunky high heels.

Wearing stiletto do make me feel good. Better posture, more confident, and taller!

Please do not laugh at me, but i do feel taller and prettier walking in them.

Even though the heels are only 2 sentimeters high, I felt at least 5 sentimeters taller.

I guess partly because i have to stand straight when they are on my feet.

Straight spine, straight waist, straight legs, even the feet have to be pointed straight in front!

As a woman turning 25 (that sounds sooooooo old!), I am starting to appreciate the "cruel beauty" of high heels.

Its cruel. Its beautiful.

Its a misery but also a blessing to be a woman.

I think I will totally give Shakespeare the credit for saying "Weakness, Thy name is woman!" IF he can wear a pair of 8 inches stiletto high heels!