communication is really the first thing we learn in life.

Yet, we still fail it. at least i failed it myserably.

 

i cant believe that i broke down on the bus talking with tony.

we came back from metro and i told him that i was gonna

go home in august. i told him i was a little scared. just then,

right on the spot, so much emotion came up from deep in me

and swallowed me. tears welled up, i just cant believe that

i cried on the bus! got off the bus, cried hard. tony asked if

i want to talk about it. i wiped out all the tear, as if nothing

had happened. I hope one day you will talk about it, he said.

 

Its actually no big deal. just communication. i have horrible

horrible communication with my family. i love them adn i know

for sure that they love me. the relation between us is just

so .... words cant even express my feeling. or i dont know

how to express myself. thats something i wasnt educated at

home, express your true feeling towards family. or i never got

the chance.

 

it hurts.